These words have resounded in my head these past few months. I used to be someone who always took into consideration other peoples’ feelings. I always used to think about how my actions would affect others. I used to care more about people. But now I feel like I’m all out for nobody else but myself. I’ve become selfish. I’ve become naggy and cynical. I try to be optimistic and hopeful, but these few years have been trying. Worrying about everyone’s feelings and trying to be civil and keep peace in situations has molded me into someone I don’t recognize. I know it’s mainly for survival – to keep sane. My priorities have changed. I have to think about what is best for me and my sanity because if I go insane, how can I help anybody else let alone take care of the babies?
I’ve just changed – not that it is for the better or worse. But I’ve definitely become someone else. I’ve adapted, I suppose. And for that, I’m sorry. Maybe in a few years, I can become myself – a better version of myself.